When I thought that I'm already okay as time passes by, all the tension and pressure came to me when I got home. I feel bad when I'm doing nothing at home while my friends are studying. I feel like I am useless just resting at home when I was supposed to go study. And the mail is still not reaching my home yet. All the decisions are not confirmed. It feels like I do not know anything at all. I don't know where I belong.
It will feel good to have anyone to talk about this whole creepy thing. Like Ama said, maybe I think too much and with my condition doing nothing at home makes me overthinking or whatsoever. Hmmm.